Being the Gift of Yourself
Q: I have been feeling, suffering, from headaches for the last eight years. I did also as a child.
B: Yes.
Q: I have explored all kinds of traditional medicine and non-traditional medicine and psychological approaches. I'm very much against any kind of pills and drugs, and I have a suspicion that it has to do with something in my development.
B: Development? All right. Did you buy into an idea you do not prefer?
Q: But I would prefer to think that it is something physical that doesn't correct itself.
B: Oh, oh, oh, oh you would prefer to think that there is something physical that cannot be corrected? You are saying that other ideas cannot be changed? You are saying you would rather have a physiological exemplification of the idea, a reason for your pain, in that way? Are you attempting, in this way, to determine that you do wish to knowingly create a physiological reason for the pain?
Q: No, put it this way: I wish I had the sense that I could do something.
B: You can. All right, you wish the sense that you can do something. I know that you can, but you wish a sense that you can. Very well, we will begin the first thing after your break to go on a little ride with you. All right, thank you very much. All of you get ready to enjoy different aspect 11111m129l s of yourself, for this will have to do with every single person present. Otherwise you would not be here. You may all take a short break.
All right I'll say, where is the human headache? (Audience laughs)
Q: Right here.
B: All right, now are you comfortable?
Q: Yes, I don't have it today.
B: All right.
Q: I have it almost every other day.
B: We will, for now, ignore that statement. For now, is now, and the now and the you, you are now, does not contain that idea. You follow me? Yes, no, maybe?
Q: No.
B: The you, you are now, is not the same you, you are in any other moment. The you, you are now does not contain the idea of a headache. So you do not have one. If you have a headache, it is not you that has one. It is a you that contains within it the definition of a headache. And that by definition is not the you, you are now.
Q: I agree with that. I am a completely different person when I have it as compared to when I don't have it.
B: You are a completely different person. Understand one thing we have spoken of. a person, personality is a not who or what are. It is, in a sense, an artificial construct projection. Any definition you give it, it will take on that tone, that coloration, that reality, that idea, that effect.
Now, before we begin specifically in this way, may I ask you a few questions?
Q: Yes.
B: I promise to take very diligent notes. First now. now this will involve, before I ask the question. this will involve you relaxing and allowing your imagination to come to the forefront. All right, are you willing to do that?
Q: Yes.
B: All right. Are you having a good time?
Q: Yes.
B: Oh, all right. One: can you right now imagine anything that comes to you at all, do not judge it, for now we are playing. All right?
Q: All right.
B: Can you imagine anyway at all, no matter now silly it may sound to say so, that the idea of having headaches has served you at all? Anyway at all that having headaches has served you, anyway at all?
Name one way.
Q: Slows me down.
B: Oh, Slows you down, very good, very good, anything else? Well, it does not have to be anything else, just asking. Do not search too hard, allow your imagination to provide automatically, instantaneously, what it needs to provide, if there is nothing else there, then say so.
Q: Suffering.
B: Oh, you feel that to suffer has been a service? How so?
Q: I don't know it just came to me.
B: Oh, all right. Suffer!
Questioner #2: Not so loud. (Audience laughs)
B: Oh, all right, to slow you down and to suffer. All right, anything else?
Q: So that I don't have ecstasy.
B: So that you don't have ecstasy. You are saying that you have slowed yourself down, suffered, so that you don't have ecstasy. All right. Headaches have been of service to you so that you do not have ecstasy. Now, may I ask you, how is not having ecstasy a service to you?
Q: Because if I have ecstasy.
B: Yes?
Q: I take it away from other people.
B: How do you take it away from other people, if you have ecstasy?
Q: Oh, don't ask me that, I mean.
B: Don't ask, well I just did, it's too late. (Much Laughter)
If you had said, "don't ask me that before I'd asked you," then, maybe we would be getting somewhere. However, I have already asked you.
Q: I know that.
B: It is your way. Now I am simply asking you for a description of the mechanism. How does your having ecstasy, take ecstasy from other people? Define and describe for me, if you will be so kind, the mechanism as to how that occurs? I am very curious.
Q: Well I would have to go into my history, and um.
B: No, no, no, no, no. just define for me, in simple terms, how having ecstasy takes ecstasy from other people. How does this happen? How is this mechanically possible?
Q: No, it is not mechanically possible.
B: Then how does your having ecstasy, take ecstasy from other people? Listen to how you are phrasing what you say. How does your having ecstasy take ecstasy from other people?
Q: Like when I have ecstasy. I feel that I am so endowed with something that other people are not.
B: Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, what makes you think they are not, and if they are not, how can you take ecstasy from them?
Q: Well, I was told as a child that I'd got all the goodies in my family.
B: Goodies, all the goodies. Did this information come to you from someone with a very sour face?
Q: Yes, sounds very sour.
B: Oh, all the goodies, and we got none, you spoiled little child, you lucky little girl. Is that what you are saying? Something like that?
Q: Right.
B: All right, now. You cannot possibly have all the goodies without everyone else, also, being able to have all the goodies. Because, you are unique, but you are not special. Everyone is unique, and so because everyone is unique, no one is special. Therefore, if you are able to have all the goodies you can have, then other individuals can have all the goodies too. For recognize this, you can only have all of your own goodies, you can't have someone else's; and they could not have your goodies but could only create goodies for themselves, in their own way.
So when someone tells you, well, you got all the goodies and I didn't get any, they sure didn't choose to create their own goodies for themselves. They cannot have yours by definition, your goodies are specifically attuned to you, and your goodies are the only goodies you can get. You can't get someone else's, they are not designed for you. The one's you get are designed for you, and that is why you can get them. But another individual who chooses to be sour about that, is simply choosing to not recognize that you were a reflection to them of the potential for them to create their own goodies for themselves. Because if you can do it, they can do it. But they choose not to believe, they choose to play victim, and you are choosing to believe that that is so. that they can be a victim, that the universe is unfair, keeping you with all the goodies and creating all these other individuals to keep the goodies from. Let's play a joke. All That Is says, " I will create one individual, her, and give her all the goodies and I'll create all these other individuals just so they will be sour about not having the goodies I gave to her.
Now that is what you are saying you believe in. You follow me?
Q: Yes.
B: Now, can you recognize that you cannot take anyone's ecstasy from them, because their ecstasy is not yours to take, nor can you even touch it. You can only create ecstasy for you. You follow me? Therefore, you have never been able to take anything from anyone. They may have been willing to play the game of giving their power to you, in a sense, even though they can't give it to you; but they can pretend that you have more power than they do, and they can allow you to choose to believe that, and allow you to choose to feel bad about having more power in the universe than anyone else.
Now, recognize that the only way there can be a you and a someone else, to tell you what they told you, is if you both are created equally. For they are using 100% of their power to create a feeling of powerlessness, and you simply used your power to create a feeling of empowerment and now there is no reason to feel guilty about that, because that is the way all of you were created, with complete and total empowerment, and the ability to use that empowerment in anyway you wish. Either to use your empowerment to create a reflection of empowerment, or to use your empowerment to create a reflection of powerlessness. Now, what do you think they choose?
Q: Powerlessness.
B: Obviously, what do you think you choose?
Q: Superpower.
B: All right. And, why do you think that while they created a life in which they were going to explore powerlessness, that they choose to create such a life with someone like you in it? Why do you think in their choosing a life in which they are going to explore powerlessness, that they would choose such a life co-currently with you being in it, to reflect to them powerfulness? Why do you think they may have chosen a life of powerlessness that contains the idea of being able to see someone in power?
Q: I don't know why they would do that.
B: Well, all right, what do you think they might learn from that, what type of scenario do you think they might be exploring? Do you want a hint?
Q: Yes.
B: "Deservability."
Q: For them?
B: Yes. The idea that they would remove their power from themselves and yet, always remind themselves that such power exists, and leave it up to themselves to determine how long it will take them to recognize that the only way you, exhibiting self-empowerment could be in their lives, is if they also had the same self-empowerment. Otherwise they could never had attracted such a clear reflection as you. You follow me?
Thus, you were being of service to them, they were being of service to you. To allow you the opportunity to remain within self-empowerment, or not; and the opportunity from you to them to remain in powerlessness, or not.
Now, you have, in a sense, remained in self-empowerment. However, you have afforded yourself a small luxury, a little bit of a luxury, so that you will not have to feel to guilty over being so very self-empowered. So you can put on the appearance of sympathizing with their powerlessness, so you will not be completely alien to them. So you have adapted to have a little bit of a pain. So that they can appreciate, well, she's not completely perfect. I feel better about that. Now she's not so unreachable, now I know she is like us after all. You follow me?
Now, there are other ways to share this idea and information with these other individuals, rather than subjecting yourself to self-judgement, to guilt, to powerlessness. You can begin to act upon the power that you are in love, and in light, and share with these individuals that you are in a state of being that is something that they can also share. And that the idea of getting goodies is not a matter of luck, is not a matter of chance, is not a matter of odds, but a matter of how you choose to see yourself. You follow me?
Q: Yes, except, in a way, I have done that too, I have done a lot of sharing and a lot of helping, a lot of encouragement in showing them.
B: Yes, but may I ask you a question?
Q: Yes.
B: Are you doing it completely because you enjoy and love doing that, or because you are attempting to appease them to back off?
Q: I'm sure that that is part of it too, to do away with the guilt.
B: All right. Now understand the only way to not have guilt is to simply not choose it. Understand, also, that if you are being loving. Unconditionally loving and sharing, then guilt is not a part of it. If you are being guilty you are not being loving, for the true opposite of love, is not hate, it's guilt. You follow me?
Q: Yes.
B: Love is complete recognition of deservability, your inherent right of ecstasy. Guilt is the supposition of complete worthlessness. You follow me?
Q: Yes.
B: Therefore, you are either the vibration of love, or you are the vibration of guilt, not both. Which one do you prefer?
Q: Love, of course.
B: Oh, of course, it does not have to be of course. Is that what you prefer?
Q: I like to feel that I deserve it.
B: All right. May I ask you another question?
Q: Yes.
B: Can you give me, can you give me one reason, one reason at all, one reason why, why you should not deserve it? I'm waiting.
Q: Well, I know it sounds silly.
B: Again, do not judge.
Q: The only reason is a very early one that, that I think is to destroy the relationship.I came into this world to destroy the relationship and not my parents.
B: Do you understand the concept that you choose your parents and they choose you?
Q: I do.
B: All right. Then recognize whatever happens was a co-agreement, you can't do it all yourself. You cannot create someone else's reality. You can co-create, but what they choose for themselves is their choice. How they choose to act and react to you or anyone, is their choice. You follow me?
Q: Yes.
B: Therefore, you can also look at it in a positive way. You may understand it from the point of view that you may have agreed with them to be born to them, so they would have a reason they could consider valid for doing something they may have wanted to do anyway. but they blamed you for.
Q: I thought about that many times.
B: Then do not take the blame yourself, simply understand that anything that they were projecting on you, was their lack of willingness to take responsibility for the fact that they make their own decisions in life. You follow me?
Q: Yes.
B: Then simply forgive them, and forgive yourself, and recognize there is really nothing to forgive, for everyone is exactly where they chose to be.
Now, if you find that you do not prefer where you have chosen to be, then now recognize you are exploring all these ideas to give yourself the opportunity to know that you can choose something else; and you obviously have chosen something else, for right now you do not have a headache. So right now you are choosing to be something else. you can continue to choose to be that idea.
Now, also, allow me to remind you of this: now is now and there is only now always. The present is not a result of the past. Therefore, when you say, "well, in my early days this happened, that happened," so what? That was then, this is now. And you can be any version, any definition of now, you prefer to be. The only time you create headaches, is when you create your version of now to be someone who creates a connection to a so-called past, but you are creating a connection in the present. So if you recognize that the past is no longer you, don't create a connection to it anymore. Be now with yourself, with the you, you prefer to be. Now is who you are, now is who you are. Let that sink in. I did not say now is when you are, I said now is who you are. And that is the way I meant it. Now is who you are.
Your imagination, the same self love that brought you to the point that you are at, everything that you have experienced in your life, yes, has served you positively, because it has brought you to this point. Therefore, do not judge your past because then you will not be judging your present. To judge your past, to judge your future, is to judge your present, because both are created in the now. So if you are judging your past to be no good, what possible chance do you have to experience a pleasant present? Any aspect of yourself that you judge, you are always going to feel it now, because now is all that exists and everything exists right now. So love yourself. Love the interactions that you have co-created with any individual, for they have been what got you where you are. You follow me?
Q: Yes.
B: Now, you can recognize, therefore, that you now have the opportunity to expand the idea of self-love to new depths, new heights, new dimensions.
And allow me to remind you of one more thing, which I have written down here somewhere. (Audience laughs) Oh yes, one more question. Allow me to ask you this. did you, to the best of your recollection, have to do anything at all to deserve to be this?
Q: No.
B: Then let that be a sign to you that if you exist, All That Is thinks you should. All That Is believes you deserve existence. Why should you treat yourself with any less respect than All That Is has for you? Is it a deal?
Q: Yes.
B: Thank you very much. And doorways will be opening in your dream reality, pleasant dreams. Thank you very much. Breathe in, breathe out, the life that is yours, for it is yours and no one else's; yours to do what ever you wish, that is the gift of All That Is to you. Thank you.
Q: Thank you.
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